Praying for love and a lap dance......

Howdy,
How are you today? Today was a looong drawn out day, wet, cold, and just nasty. What's there to talk about? Sure its Tuesday, But I'm wishing it was Thursday or Friday. Ever have a thought, where the things around you feel so fake. Where you go around questioning EVERYTHING? For instance, Today, I was staring out the window listening to my Ipod [[No that's not what I do ALL day]] and the cameras that I was talking about a few weeks ago caught my eye. Then this very thought popped into my head, "What's the point in those cameras when we don't even have decent world history books?" This deep thought was rudely interrupted with, "Oh. My. God. Is that Tiffany's???" A shriek that I could do without. Which was followed by a groan by me. I couldn't believe that people don't care. They don't care that we have to follow such strict rules, Come on now. I understand that there is a slight problem with Graffiti but why do they have to punish the rest of us? I was completely appalled by the fact that I can't even walk out of any of my classes without knowing that at one point I, as a non-criminal American Citizen, am being watch, and once again, my algebra 2 book is ancient and falling apart page by page. I was only further frustrated as I continued my day. Watching my fellow peers throw their trash on the ground when the garbage can is LESS then TWO feet away. TWO feet!!!! That's it. They even set up recycling cans up for us to throw our plastic and aluminum in. Not to mention the numerous times that I was bumped into today without a; I'm sorry, Excuse me or Can I get by? NOTHING. Just pushed right passed me. By the 3rd time I was so sick of saying Excuse you I just moved where I was standing. And I was completely disgusted in my own damn generation. Now is that really necessary? I can see why many think that we are not a respectable part of society. I, personally, don't like to be grouped as the technology generation. I know, I know. "Jak", you're young. But hey, I have dreams. And I'm pretty old fashioned. [[When it comes to somethings =) ]] I enjoy the very simple things in life, I like paying when I go out on a date, I like opening the door for a woman, I get a kick out of a clear night, I love working for my money and hate when things are just handed to me. I love woman of independence, brains, and a sense of humor. I can't stand this new "emo" thing going on. Honestly, if your that sad, instead of killing your liver or slitting your wrists' why don't you just talk to someone. Everyone has it bad one way or another, get over yourself. There are plenty of teenagers out there that have it 10 times worse then you do, but day to day they continue to pull through and go about their day with nobody knowing that anything is wrong. They always become some of the best doctors, lawyers, teachers, and parents that anyone could imagine. So just snap out of it, realize that LIFE GOES ON. The world still spins round and the pages keep turning. Also, if you want to be treated with even half the respect that you think you should be handed, grow up just a little. At least to the point where you know there's more then just you in this world. Please, when you guys realize that, call me.
Anyhow, As I wait for the Apocalypse I think I will go read my book and start drifting off into a world like no other.
My home. Dream land. Life as I know it, and the people there completely understand me.
Take care of yourself.
This is Jak signing off.
Goodbye and Good Night.
Love Always,
Jak.