Hey baby....

"...Is that you? Wow, You're hair got so long..."

Howdy,

It's been an interesting week, that's for sure. So, I was thinking about this today and every now and then. I am lucky to live in California. I wonder, as I day dream in class or on the ride to and from school..Even at night, What is it like to live in a place where you can't be who you REALLY are? And is there a place where people are real?

Let's start with the first question here. This is mainly directed at being homosexual. But even being just feminine or masculine. It's like growing up in a town that is of African American roots and you're the only white one. But nobody can know that you are white. How hard would that be? And our culture. Or lack there of. You choose. I live in a place where you can be white and think that you are black and you are still excepted. Or you can be a lesbian, like myself, and not have to hide it by dressing by society's dress code.

Now, I look around my school, at all the different types of people and notice that all of them are alike. Maybe not the way they dress, or the way the wear there hair, or the way they talk. But, they all have one thing in common. Routine. Groups. Cliques. They are all everything that the other one hates. And, it only encourages my curiosity more to wonder, What else is out there. Is there a place where people care about things other then that Verizon Razor that they didn't get for their birthday? Or where I can hold a somewhat meaningful conversation with a REAL person. Where people are not judged by the fact that they don't give a shit about the latest outfit or most expensive purse. And are not afraid to say something to your face. I try and be REAL here. But, Being around all these Plastic Barbies, makes me want to find myself a Country Girl. Which I know is going to happen anyway. I just want it now!

I am losing myself, more and more everytime I see a Ken and Barbie walking down the street, still in there cardboard boxes.

That's it. This Cali Girl needs a country bell. I know you're out there. Texas? Kentucky? Shoooot, I'll take an Okie. Trust me folks. As nice as California is, I don't think it's worth it to lose your sanity over the view.

Alright well, I'm going to get off this.

Talk care.

And I am glad to hear that most of your Valentines Day's went well. =]

Now, take a good look around you...Like what you see?

It isn't all that much better out here.

I will write you soon.

This is Jak Signing off.

Goodbye and Good Evening.

Love Always,

Jak.